Having someone take advantage of your
Mood:  irritated
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Having somone take advantage of your god and helpful nature is very trying. If there's one thing I can't stand is for someome to know, that I want to be of assistance to someone and then take advantage of that.

It's just plain not fair. I'll get my day or days to do what I want to do. And believe me, they won't be a part of it. I'm just going through my male pm that's all and I want to go home. It's not easy being a nice guy.

Thanks

Sebastian

Update on me and my physical being.......
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Update on me and my physical being...
Hello readers,

Just an update on me and my physical being. I went to my doctor's appointment today and my blood sugar is down and it's normal. My weight is down and I feel good.

My blood sugar is 114 and my weight is 188.8 which is a good thing. My breathing is clear and I don't have any problems with my asthma. But, I still have to get my inhalers filled and my generic gloucophage filled. But I'm still going to go to my appointment at the Mazzoni Center. I can't wait to do what I have to do as far as that's concerned.

Yayyyyyyy!!! LOL!

Hugs!

Sebastian Bruce

Feeling kind of rammy....
Mood:  flirty
Now Playing: Feeling kind of rammy
Well folks, I guess on a nice spring day when the temperature gets up to 70 and 80 degrees and there's a nice breeze blowing through the window, my thoughts go onto lustful things. Watching Playboy TV has its advantages. Not only does it allow me to take notes, (lol), but it's a great turn on. Sometimes it's a great source of fantasy, sometimes my imagination just goes wild.

I think it's the spring air or the exercise, or maybe it's just a drink of water, but I just get so horny and I just wanna....wanna....wooohooo! I do masturbate quite often and my imagination does what it wants. I don't fight it and I'm not ashamed of it. Thank goodness, I do have the self-control that a Buddhist and a Catholic, on a good day,does have. I would be as promiscuous as I used to be. Whew! Self-control is a good thing to have.

As one of the prinicpals of Buddhism, right action:
If I relieve myself, then I won't have to worry about not being able to look my honey in her eyes and say, "Honey, I've been faithful to you." And for her to know I'm telling her the truth.

Only a good man can say that.

Thanks!

Sebastian Bruce

My hot night out.....
Mood:  celebratory
Now Playing: My hot night out...
My hot night out with my friend, Daniel was a great experience. I met a lot of other transwomen or mtf. The food was especially delicious and the dessert was wonderful.

The conversation was ok, but I was chatting with a wonderful lady from Wisconsin, she was funny. After the dinner was over there was a nice intimate conversation with the other transwomen. I was cordial and polite and I felt like I was in good company.

The bartender and the cook came upstairs and asked how everything was. And in all honesty we said that everything was delicious. Before everyone left, we said our goodbyes and one of the ladies said to me and Daniel, that everyone was on their best behavior. I smiled to myself and giggled. I guess everyone acts differently when they aren't in a social situation. But all in all the evening went well.

I did feel the eyes of some of the ladies on me, but I didn't pay it any attention. Everything went ok, alarm-wise, I didn't break out in a nervous sweat and I disarmed the alarm in quick fashion. Tonight is definately a red letter night.

Thanks,

Sebastian.

Working on myself even more...
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Working on myself even more...
While at a two part workshop on Communications, I have come to the realization that I need to work on myself some more.

I need to get my issues out and out of my way, so I can help do the mission of the Yes institute. They have an admirable mission and I want to be a part of it. I'm going to be talking with several people about my shit.

And I'm talking about the issues that's blocking my way of be even more vulnerable, in having the ability to "let it all hang out" and stop being so polite and sweet. Of course, being polite and sweet is needed in certain situations, but when the politeness and sweetness is getting in my way, I feel limited and I fell like my reach has been shortened.

So, it's time I put the garbage to the side and "let loose".

Thanks!

Sebastian.

Hanging out with other transgenders...
Mood:  chatty
Now Playing: Hanging out with other transgenders....
This coming Saturday, I'll be hanging out with other transgenders. I'll be hanging out with a new crowd of people.

I don't know what to expect, but I know I'll have fun. It's going to feel weird being around people going through transition. Some will probably be checking me out and asking questions.

Some will be possibly flirting with me and some will possibly be giving me rude looks, lol! I might even see a few that I know. After time goes by, it will be an interesting thing to see who's the various stages of change. I will no doubt be encounter folks that will ask me some pretty embarrasing questions.

But I will be able to answer with the greatest of ease. I will probably be getting the look over. I would think I would encounter suspicion and disbelief. But that's ok, I expect it.

It would be like I'm just coming out of the closet all over again. But this time, I would be like a young man hanging out with other young folks. Of course, some of the women will be smiling and flirting with me, just to see how far they can get.

I will definately let them know that I have a sweetheart. She's a genetic woman and I'm happily in love with her. I wouldn't imagine falling for another woman. But all in all, I have a good feeling about this. I think I will feel more and more at ease in my skin and less nervous about my new community. Not to mention, I'll be going out on a Saturday night. Wooooo! Hooooooo! So, I'll keep ya posted on what's up!

Hugs!

Sebastian

Tag questions.....
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: Tag questions.....

I borrowed some tag questions from a good friend of mine's blog. I hope she doesn't mind.

I am a human being.

I want my honey bunny and I want to go home.

I hear kids playing outside and the sound of a lawn mower.

I wonder were the sun is, lol!

I am not going to be in this house forever.

I sing in the choir and I sing because I can.

I make with my hands my food and works of art.

I confuse my dates and days, sometimes

I need a hug, kiss and my honey bunny to call me.

I finish most things which is a good thing.

I would rather be at my apartment and being on my own computer.

I hate being ignored, looked over and not answered when I post to someone, or give them a compliment, or have them take their anger out on me.

I miss my best friend.

I fear nothing, too much.

I wonder where the sun is.

I regret nothing.

I dance very seductively and as often a I want to.

I cry when something happens to my friends and I when I can't take the pain away.

I write to express myself.

I should get a shower.

I start my day with a silent prayer.

I live my life as I see fit.

I prefer women

I know something you don't know. lol!

I must have lost my mind somewhere, can you help me find it?

I hope everyone has a nice day.

Sebastian

Watching the sunrise and thinking of you....
Mood:  amorous
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Watching the sunrise and thinking of you. Thinking of your beautiful hair when it covers me. Anticipating all of it's loveliness. Waiting to run my fingers through its thickness, waiting to smell its freshness.

Wanting to see you first thing in the morning. To see your smile, to kiss your lips. To feel the electic waves flow through me. To feel our spirits "kiss" each other when we make love for the first time. To feel your mouth all over me.

To say your name as you are bringing me to the pinnacle of desire. To burst in flames and to cool down and bask in the glow of our passion that is shared.

To lay you down and slowly pay tribute to you and your body. To run my tongue along your neck, then your breasts, then your stomach, then your thighs and giving you loving caresses all over. Feeling you move to each touch and hear every sigh of delight.

Turning you over and slowly mounting you, parting your hair and paying tribute to the back of you. Slowly caressing your back with my hands, kneading and squeezing each and every muscle. Letting my hands sllloooowwwwllllllyyyy glide down to your butt and knead and squeeze them. Kissing you down your back and giving you little bites and licks by turn.

Rubbing my privates on you until you are so aroused that you alomst beg for me to relieve you. Going to your clit and sucking you slowly and lightly at first. Feeling your hands in my hair......


When you have come several times, I can see the tears of joy flowing from your eyes. As I move up to you, we kiss slowly and deeply. Drinking in the love that flows from your mouth. Falling to sleep, in your arms and waking in time to see the sunset. Kissing you slowly, sweetly and rousing you to passion again.

WEG! I know, I'm a bad boy. But it's my world.

Sebastian

Dreaming about my honey bunny
Mood:  amorous
Now Playing: Dreaming about my honey bunny
Dreaming about my honey bunny is something that I do a lot of. I'm dreaming about the many times that we will be together and make love. I dream about the many times that I will be pleasuring her. And of course, being pleaured in return.


My main focus is making her feel good. I want to give her such pleasures. I want to give her oral sex, I want to penetrate her with my fingers. I want to make her feel good all over. I want her to say my name so passionately that I will come with her. I want to cum with her so hard.

I want to make her body feel soooo good that she will shout to the ceiling and then just quiver in my arms while I'm holding her in the sweet afterwards. Do you know what it's like making a woman just claw your back while your being "passionate" in your movements while your penetrating her. It's heavenly.


I think I should stop here.... I'm getting very hot and horny....of course, what else is new? LOL

Sebastian

Relating to women.....
Now Playing: Relating to women is.....
As a man, relating to women is based solely and completely on respect. Me respecting them and they respecting me. My sweetheart respects me and I respect her. We have our disagreements as all loving couples have.

My respect of other women is an everyday thing. Take my best friend for example. She's a heterosexual female. She treats me like a man, but respectfully so. When I'm over her house, I can go anywhere I wish. Except her bedroom. When she's upstairs in her office, I leave her alone so she can think and work in peace. On the morning that she was getting ready for her last yoga class before she left on her vacation, she waited until I took my shower and got dried off.

I closed the door when I heard her go to her bedroom. I smiled as I streaked to my room which is her office. I put my undershirt on and the rest of my clothes. Unbeknowngst to myself, she had stripped and went into the bathroom to take her shower. I said out loud as I was going down the stairs "You mean I missed the strip show?" LOL!

That's just my male sense of humor. I would have waited until she was in the shower safely behind the shower curtains. I realized that I had forgotten my money. I always make it a habit of carrying money around. Anyway, before I went upstairs, I announced myself by saying "Are you dressed?" She acknowledged that she was and I proceeded upstairs to retrieve some money.

Things are going to be interesting spending three days with my honey bunny. How are we going to interact? I have no doubt that we will get along just fine, I just want an instant preview, that's all.

My best friend has know that I'm a man and she teases me and I tease back. I have no designs on her and she has none on me, at least I hope not! lol!

In my world, there is no who's superior to whom and who's not superior, everyone is equal. I just can't wait to kiss my girlfriend's juicy lips!!!

Thanks,

Sebastian.